Let me start by saying that this will be a mostly Negative post.
Being negative these days, is almost as bad as eating sugar, but sometimes, like a good packet of Double-coated Tim Tams, I just need a good whinge!
Most days, I am Wonder Woman! I am all about self-love and I will happily declare that usually, I am a pretty impressive person. I am a stay at home mum and it is bloody hard work. I keep all the balls in the air, but every once and awhile, I drop the balls – on purpose – and shout for all to hear, “I DON’T WANNA!!”
I don’t wanna clean the house! I don’t wanna make breakfast, lunch and dinner! I don’t wanna do the school run! I don’t wanna do the laundry! I DON’T WANNA!!
And that is just the tip of the iceberg….
I also run this blog and the local papers from the comfort of my lounge-room - but sometimes, I DON’T WANNA!!
Life is full to the brim with ‘Have tos’ – jobs and things that we ‘have to’ do, and it is totally draining. Not only am I, like a million other women, dealing with the daily grind of motherhood, but I am stupidly saving for Europe (no retail therapy) and trying my hand at clean living.
Let me explain Clean Living, for those that have not read the 1 million books and articles relating to the topic….
No sugar, no processed food, no caffeine after 10am, no smart phones after 9pm, not too much dairy, not too much gluten, exercise daily, no plastic, no chemicals…. The whole thing makes me want to pour myself a stiff drink…. Oh, hang on a minute, you guessed it – not too much alcohol!
I live this way, in an effort to be healthy, but it requires the organisation skills of Marie Kondo, the motivational prowess of Tony Robbins and the kitchen expertise of Jamie Oliver…. It’s exhausting.
90% of the time, I’ve got this! My Instagram account often looks like a food blog. I enjoy how it all makes me feel, but every so often – SNAP! Just give me some goddamn convenience, in the shape of a pizza!
This week has been one of those weeks….
I have fallen off the wagon and although there have been no pizzas or Tim Tams yet, I have the feeling that a binge of some sort is in my future. I know the binge will make me feel worse, so my resolve has slipped in other ways….
I spent $35 on a beautiful skirt. Did I need it? No, but I sure did want it.
I didn’t clean the house on Monday, or Tuesday! Did my mini strike help? Not really, but it was worth a shot.
I had a ham and cheese roll for lunch! Did I enjoy it? It wasn't bad...
My funk is still hanging about, but it’s alright, because life is for living, and it is OK, to just be OK. Nobody minds if I am not perfect, because perfect is boring and it doesn’t exist.
You know what does exist? Double-coated Tim Tams and that is as close to perfection, as I am ever likely to experience!